For all my life I’ve been nothing but an angel. A saint. Not a good Samaritan… the perfect Samaritan. *stares into the distance with a holier-than-thou smile* OK, OK, none of that is true…. all I’ve done now is prove that along with being a little rascal, I’m also a big, fat, self-righteous liar! But mostly I try to be kind with my words… mostly… I try. Well, as of this week I can officially say I’ve cussed in anger at two people in my life. *stares into distance as single tear rolls down face*
The first was in high school, way back in the black and white days of 1997. I was driving to school, n’er a worry in the world! All of the sudden, about 50 yards from the school parking lot the driver behind me bumped into the back of my Nissan pickup truck. HOW DARE SHE. We were literally so close to my school that the nearest place for both of us to pull over was the school parking lot.
It was a rainy day. That was her excuse. *stares into the distance with a skeptical look*
Moving right along to when I was walking my dogs just the other day. It’s 2020 so of course a big ol’ box truck comes barreling down my street just as me and the pups started our walk. Though we now have speed cushions to slow drivers down, he didn’t seem to care… or even notice. As he quickly and loudly passed by, I blurted out my feelings in not so uncertain terms, to which he blurted his feelings back, also with not much uncertainty. We were both such adults in that moment. *sarcasm*
For the next 10 minutes I was upset at the guy and also at myself for letting him get to me.
These examples aren’t something I’m proud of at all. I guess I’m also not NOT proud of them either. *stares into the distance confused by my own statement* As a Christian I know I need to hold myself to a higher standard. In these couple of encounters I wasn’t kind with my words. It’s not to say the other person wasn’t deserving of a tongue lashing, but as I judge others, so to I am judged. There have been plenty of other times in my life when I was the a-hole. *stares off into distance thinking about what a dweeb I can be*
Have you ever had a moment of split-second thinking that you might change if you had the chance? I’d say for me with these two folks, if I could do either again I wouldn’t cuss; I would try in a more effective way to change their behavior. Because I’m always right. I know what everyone else should do and I need them to know it. 🙂
Also, today is my sister’s birthday. Happy birthday sis!
-Out of the Wilderness