I was sooooo not ready for NF’s new song and video when I woke up this morning. And yet, it’s going to be something I remember about this week. Where were you when you first heard/watched this song of hurt, questions, and wonder? I can barely come up with words to write, honestly. It’s a song, a video, I’ll need to revisit over and over to be able to shape my thoughts about it and how it draws out my own hurt. My own questions. My own wonder.
Here’s “Fear.”
With every second ticking by, my heart sank lower. Yet, at the same time, the encouragement of someone writing how it feels to be deflated. To feel depressed, even if it’s not clinical. It’s not officially diagnosed. But it can show up like fog on a fall morning. It rolls in and there’s not much to do to keep from getting enveloped by it. Two steps forward, three steps back. Believing that God is for me, in the way that someone standing on the roadside rooting us on as we jog by in a marathon. But then wondering if they snicker when we trip and fall.
Life can be dark and NF has never, ever hidden that away. It’s in his lyrics in so many songs and “Fear” might very well be one of my favorites of his. I typed however many words for this post but I still am left watching this video…
speechless.
-Out of the Wilderness
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