...going to the chapel of love. A remarkable thing happened the other day when I was out to lunch with a friend. Well, actually, my being social is kind of remarkable on its own, but then ANOTHER remarkable thing happened. During lunch I found out an ex-girlfriend is now married. Her name came up in conversation and it was then that I became “in the know.” My friend actually thought I already knew, but nope. Now I finally know the answer to this question:
How will I feel when I find out she’s engaged or married?
And the answer is… you think I’m streaming Adele now, don’t you? I’ll be spending the rest of the week eating pints of ice cream and watching “While You Were Sleeping.” Welllllllll……
I thought I might feel devastated. I thought I might be sad. I thought my heart would be heavy. I thought a lot of things. But as weird as it sounds, the very first feeling I had after the news broke was… relief. RELIEF! Like all is right in the world*. I know the relationship she and I shared had it’s ups and downs, but the right man for her is with her now. He’s making her feel his love. They’re rolling in the deep. He said hello, she said let’s set fire to the rain.
*All is hardly right in the world, this was definitely a generalization and maybe even a metaphor. Ah well, water under the bridge.
But politics and international unrest aside, there’s a burden off my shoulders. I don’t know if I can even verbalize what the burden was, maybe a heavy “what if” or “what could’ve been.” I feel joy, too. I wish her the best and hope she sends my love to her new lover.
This somehow transformed into how many Adele songs can I reference but if 2020 was the year where nothing happened due to lockdowns, etc, “transformation” can be how 2021 is defined. So much happening worldwide, countrywide, and in my own life.
Rumour has it more changes are on the way so I hope we’re all buckled in!
-Out of the Wilderness