Marrying the wrong person is a nightmare

I was standing in the foyer of the church with the rest of the wedding party, including the woman I was about to marry. The guests had all been seated. Our wedding was about to start. We were moments away from the bride walking down the aisle. I guess this wedding was untraditional for 2 reasons: 

  1. I was with the bride before the ceremony even started (tradition is for the groom to not see the bride on the wedding day until she’s walking down the aisle)
  2. She was first to take her place on the stage in front of the church, then I was to walk over from a side aisle to join her and the rest of the wedding party on stage

But tradition aside, I can still vividly remember the dire panic I felt in the pit of my very soul as I was about to marry the wrong woman. I didn’t love her. I didn’t even think she was cute! But I guess I just went along with the relationship as it progressed into something serious, through engagement, wedding plans, and now the wedding day. 

Thoughts were running through my head about how I could get out of it. Run. Just run away. But then her dad would hunt me down and do bad things to me. I could stop the ceremony and announce to everyone that I can’t do it. Maybe pull the bride aside and tell her it’s off? That would be terrible timing seeing as how we’re literally at the wedding ceremony. OUR wedding ceremony. I could wait a few days or weeks then have it annulled. This was rising up in my mind as the best option. Just get through the ceremony, make pleasantries, have the first dance, all while knowing that it’s for nothing. These special moments mean nothing and will hurt her to no end when I admit to her it was all a mistake. 

The terrible feeling, that pit in my stomach that reached deep into my soul, it was just as real as anything I’ve ever felt in my entire life. Then I woke up. Yes, this was all just a dream and I’ve never been more thankful to wake up than this particular morning. I can’t even explain with the right words how real this dream was. I even remember in the dream thinking that this is real, this isn’t a dream. Wow. 

I may not ever know exactly the meaning of this dream so from what I can take from it at this point is that I never ever, ever, ever, ever want to feel the way I felt standing in the front of this church with a terrible feeling of marrying someone I don’t want to marry… and it being too late to do anything about it.  

It was the most disheartening, worrisome, fear I’ve ever felt in real life or in dreams. 

-Out of the Wilderness

Rim of the World – Netflix (no spoilers!)

I recently watched Rim of the World (Rotten Tomatoes, 48% audience score) because I’m always months and months behind everyone else. Yes, that means next year I’ll watch “Tiger King.” Just get over the fact that this little blog post is going up a year after the movie debuted on Netflix and let’s move right along 🙂

PS. In my defense, I haven’t had Netflix for about a year. I’ve been a Hulu subscriber and watching wholesome stuff like this.

Here’s the trailer, if you haven’t seen it before:

My summary of this film in one word: “ewwww,” pretty much solely based on the overuse of inappropriate language like cursing and sex jokes. It’s as if the script was written by an adult and hey, it was! Zack Stentz swings and misses with this one, sorry “bro.” For reference to what I mean about the language, I always go back to Michelle on Full House. No real kid talks like she did on that show. She was clearly performing lines written by adults. 

The idea for the story was interesting enough. Hey, I love a good adventure film! To it’s credit, there were a few funny lines and moments, too, especially throwing out a bottle of aged wine because it’s not new enough. That was very much what a kid would say and do. But it was simply too much of the sex jokes, and other behavior associated more with how adults behave rather than kids. Although there IS such a thing as TikTok… so maybe kids know a whole lot more than when I was a tiny teen??

Going back to the first 15 or 20 minutes of the film, kids show up at a summer camp and that’s all well and good, but no parent would let their kid stay at a camp where the counselors are cursing, making out, or just plain creepy… and that was just during the “parent drop-off” on day 1 of camp! To say this particular part of the movie is not at all believable needs to be taken with a grain of salt because it’s a movie, I get it, but they should’ve have made the camp more realistic to set up how “out of this world” the rest of the story was.

Basically, it lost me at “hello.”

If you have a free night and need a movie that won’t feel like a waste of time… this movie is NOT for you. I don’t recommend it, especially for kids. Just watch a few inappropriate TikTok videos and you get the gist of this movie. You’d be way more satisfied watching Feel the Beat, which is also on Netflix and will have you laughing, cheering… without all the adult language and themes.

Thanks for stopping by!

-Out of the Wilderness

Hebrews book review by William Barclay will make you a better Christian

I randomly came across a book at Thriftsmart a few months back and it might go down as the best few dollars I’ve ever spent! The book is called “the LETTER to the Hebrews” by William Barclay. Click that link to find it on Amazon and I’ll tell you right now, 100%, you won’t regret it. I’m not a Bible scholar, in fact I don’t even like to read much although I go through phases where I enjoy reading. So if you’re anything like me, you’ll still enjoy reading it even if you don’t like reading that much. Side note: thanks for reading my blog today, I know it’s probably too long. 🙂

51YZhSQhAjL._SX330_BO1,204,203,200_This little book has such amazing insight into why the writer says the things he (or she) says, why certain words are significant, and has shown me a depth in the Scripture I haven’t known before. And all of this is just for the book of Hebrews! Mr. Barclay’s explanations are so meaty I can only read a few pages at a time, and sometimes need breaks for a day or two just to process. After reading, and again this is just for Hebrews, I feel encouraged, astounded, amazed, and in awe of the details of God’s story, my story, Jesus’ story, and our story as humankind.

I don’t often write to you and tell you to go out and buy something, but this is one you should go buy. Or if you’re in the Nashville area, I’ll pass along my copy to you as soon as I’m done. Well, since we’re talking about buying stuff now, also get one of these. You won’t be sorry. 😉

-Out of the Wilderness

40 days and 40 nights…

Since a few months ago when a tree landed on my roof, I’ve had the pleasure of a few guests barely not overstaying their welcome. Although they’ve come close a few times to me yelling, “Get the chirp outta here!” 


Well, the short story is that this tree knocked off the chimney cap, which I didn’t think was a big deal. That is, until one night I heard ruffling and chirping coming from where? Surely not where I think it is… Yep, the fireplace! So from inside the house I opened up the fireplace and… nothing. This is where it gets a bit more complicated: the fireplace damper had been closed so the bird evidently made a nest above it. Now if I open the damper, everything comes tumbling down, thereby ruining the nest that might already have eggs in it. Or if I put the chimney cap back on when I know the bird is out and about, I may trap the babies without their mama. OK, I did say this was the short story so to sum up… for the past couple of months (or maybe it’s been a week? It’s hard to tell) I’ve heard the chirping of birds at all hours of the day. Part of me is like, “awwwwww how cute.” The other part of me is like, “@#&$*#@% birds!” 

-Out of the Wilderness

Is being a Christian really this easy?

There’s a talk radio host in Nashville I love listening to and one day he had this most simple yet profound thought summarized below…

As a kid, all you really need to do is get good grades and obey your parents.

If you do those two things, the world will open up to you in ways you actually really want. Is your friend having a party? Want to go on that trip with your friend and their family? Dying to get that new Playstation game? Well, those dreams can be reality if you just behave and do well in school. This sort of blanket statement obviously has exceptions, but just imagine the trust between parents and kids if this was the norm.

I often think of my beagle, Piper. If you have a beagle you will totally relate to what I’m about to say. She follows her nose. Sometimes that nose gets her in trouble. It’s why she absolutely must be on a leash outside if she’s not in a fence. I can call her all day long but she will not come to me when she’s hot on the trail of [insert animal here]. There have been too many times to count where she’s gotten out of the fence, or escaped from a place of safety and been gone for hours. What she doesn’t know is that if she were to behave, she would actually have MORE freedom, more time off the leash. But without a doubt, if she’s off-leash, she’s off and running. I wish she knew that if she obeyed, she’d have a lot more freedom.

It’s a simple statement about Piper, and about a child getting good grades and obeying their parents. For each one, a lot of their life would be better and more fun if they just follow a few rules. It sounds so simple.

Then I connected this thought with the Christian life. God knows we are people prone to complicated webs of rules and jealousy and bossiness and selfishness and, well, I could go on and on… but in the Bible He laid it out in such a way that’s easy to grasp:

Love God with all your heart, soul, and mind… and love your neighbor as yourself.

Now I know that’s not as easy as it sounds but isn’t it pretty amazing that there isn’t a gigantic rule book to follow? Heck, even the Old Testament only had 10 rules (which were easy to break, might I add).

Even these two commands, loving God with our whole selves and loving our neighbor, is hard to follow because of our human nature but it’s a lot easier to give ourselves a chance and some grace knowing that with a bit of submission and trying to obey, we can actually have more freedom than if we try to do things our own way.

What are your thoughts on this? I’d love for you to share in the comments below, and as always, thanks for stopping by!

-Out of the Wilderness